Childhood fears

Don't even try denying that one have no fears at all, because I'm pretty sure no matter how tough or rough a person is, they still have their fair share of fears. Fear of losing someone important? or the most common one, fear of death. Even the superheroes like Batman admitted he's scared of death. I'm no exceptional. The stories heard from others aren't helping either as it only increase my number of fears. 

Since young, I'm fear of heights. Yes, one'll probably laugh at that. I feel nauseous whenever I'm at high places. Even when riding escalators, I tend to stand inside. I also don't seeing things from the 2nd floor or other higher grounds for I've this thinking that by standing near the railings, the floor my suddenly collapse. However, I'm a fan of roller coasters. Ironic right? Well, the truth is I don't realize the height during the ride. With the speed, the rush, the adrenalin and screaming my hearts out, I eventually forgot about my fear of heights. :P 

Besides that, I also have fear for insects. No matter the size, the number of legs or whatever, as long as they are classifies as insects, then yes, I'm afraid of them. The insect I fear most is cockroaches, flying or not flying, they are still scary. >.< I remember clearly about my first encounter with cockroach where I was still young and needed my mom to bathe me. I was at my hometown. They have this huge tub filled with water. That day, when bathing, I realize this brownish thingy on the wall of the tub. I did asked my mom what was it, and my mom just said it was nothing. "Oh well, since mummy said it was nothing, that means no harm touching it right?" That's exactly what I thought. Then boo, it's a freaking cockroach, and it can FLY. :O Ever since that day, I don't simply touch things, don't wanna repeat that incident now do we. I also fear of ants. I'll have this icky and "geli" feeling when there are lots of ants running around the table. Though one can just kill it within seconds for it's so tiny eeny miny, I'm still scared of them. Some are so big, and they can run fast. ewww... 

Darkness was also one of my fears. I used to drag my younger brother every where I go, I feel safer knowing someone is with me. When my brother doesn't want to accompany me, I'll either threaten him or bribe him, such a bad sister I am. I used to tell him ghost stories to scare him into accompanying me. One day, we got in a fight because one of us didn't want to follow the other one. My parents scolded us for that. As a punishment, they locked us in the storeroom. We are completely capable of turning on the lights, but then at the moment the fear that my mom will punish us if we disobey her is more prominent than the darkness. Though, I had a hard time calming down my brother who was crying non-stop when I, myself was scared shitless from both darkness and the creatures who were said to be lurking in the storeroom. Eventually, I overcome my fear for darkness after listening to a speech. "The only thing we have to fear is fear itself", the only solution is to confront it, though it takes time to prepare oneself mentally and physically to face it, but the joy and satisfaction one obtain after overcoming it is the best feeling. :)

Discrimination lives within everyone

The meaning of discrimination is a treatment or consideration of, or making a distinction in favor of or against, a person or thing based on the group, class, or category to which that person or thing belongs rather than on individual merit: racial and religious intolerance and discrimination.

Our country, Malaysia is a colourful nation, which consists of 3 different races, The Malays, Chinese and Indians. It's is important to work as one and eliminate all sorts of hard feelings against one another in order to avoid any unnecessary fights. However, it's undeniable that discrimination lives within each and everyone of us. Last week, my English teacher, Pn. Monica, brought us to watch a movie. The title of the movie is The Freedom Writers. I must say, the movie is really touching. It made me realize one thing, is that discrimination is like a second nature to us. We often discriminate others without us realizing. Though it's done unintentionally, we'll however offend someone or hurt that person's feelings.


Honestly, whenever we read newspapers on news about rape or robberies, which race will come into our mind first? Why do we sometimes feel extremely uncomfortable whenever there're people who have darker complexion and of different race around us? That's because we think that they are the caused of troubles. That alone can show that one is being prejudice. Discrimination will affect an individual's actual behavior towards a group and leads to the exclusion of the individual or entities based on logical or irrational decision making. We've no right to judge a book by its cover. Besides, we also have no right to assume all people of the same race are bad people just because some of them commit crimes. 

Moreover, we also judge people by it's gender. For example, women are often looked down upon during the early years. Employers prefer to employ men over women as they think that men are more capable than women. Hence, women are only allowed to work in the kitchen. Furthermore, even in this modern era, sons are often paid more attention compared to girls. Some parents believe that they are the ones who will be carrying the family's name therefore they are more important. To them, they are the main priority. Nevertheless, women nowadays have proved that they are more than capable to handle things their own. There are many successful business women out there who are greatly respected by others.

Already gone

2 weeks of holiday had just passed.

I've to admit, I didn't do much during the hols.

Wanted to relax for the first week,

and then study on the next.

However, all my plans were disrupted.

On the second day of hols, around 6am,

where everyone was still sleeping soundly,

My mom got a call from aunty 

who was taking care of grandma in a hospital.

Mummy was crying non-stop after the call,

my grandmother had passed away.

It's so sudden that I didn't believe it at first.

I mean, she was still fine the other day!

The journey back to home town was silent and sorrowful

as everyone was so caught up with their emotions

that hardly anyone wanted to talk.

Any topic about my grandma will easily brought tears.

Had spent a week in my home town,

preparing and helping for the funeral.

After coming back, I had followed my mom to her office.

to work as a part time data entry clerk for 3 days.

Some people will say that I'm too free.

but well, I wanted to earn myself some pocket money
instead of always asking from my mom. :)

Had neglected my group of friends,

only went out once with them during the hols. :/

Sorry peeps.

yeap, that's basically how I had spent my hols.

A letter to...

Inconsiderate Acts Of People

Dear editor:

As a Malaysian, I would like to point out a few flaws of Malaysian which is utterly annoying and frustrating. We all know, every man tend to make mistakes. It is unavoidable, but maybe, we can try to amend and avoid it and not the other way round. At young age, we're taught on how to be a honourable and respectable people through Moral and Civic subject, yet, why do some Malaysians still act like a group of unmoral people? Their 'I-don't-give-a-damn' attitude caused them to act recklessly and they don't feel sorry even if their act had caused inconvenience to other people. Let me list down some examples of inconsiderate act in our citizens.

Punctuality is very important in our life. It shows the commitment a person puts into their task and whether they are a responsible and trust-able person. However, we, Malaysians are well known for being unpunctual. Sad, I know. From meetings to dinners, there are always some people who will arrive late. One minute after the time stated is also counted as late. Some are so used to being late that they do not care about others who arrived early and have to wait for them. I understand that sometimes it is hard to estimate the time and the traffic conditions, but we can make preparations and depart earlier. If a dinner is being held at 7.30pm, instead of departing at 7.15pm, we can leave home earlier so that there's still time even if there is a traffic jam.With that, events can be started on time, and the hosts do not need to worry about latecomers.

Besides that, It is really rude to cut queues but that is what most Malaysians nowadays do. This act will leave a bad impression to those who are waiting patiently in the line. If it's urgent or they are running short of time, they can at least ask the people lining up before cutting queue, but no, they just acted like nothing happened and queue in, as if no one was lining up behind them. It is really annoying especially when you are lack of time. Moreover, some adults have abused their rights. They thought their older and wiser and that it is only appropriate that we, youngsters just let them cut in. I'm very disappointed in them, they are supposed to set a good example for us, and cutting queues is definitely not a wise act.

The next thing that I find very irritating is public smokers. The contents in a cigarette will cause lung cancer and affect one's health. Not to forget that us, second-hand smokers will be affected in more ways and faced higher chances of getting lung cancer than the smokers. It is not wrong to smoke in public, but do know that some people do value their lives and wanted to live a long life. It is really inconsiderate of them to smoke in places crowded with people, where there is no way to avoid them. So, smokers should have the tendency to at least find a place which is less people and open air. Smoking areas are built for a reason.

What I wanted to say is we Malaysians should reflect on our own behaviours and try to correct it before we comment on other people. We can't expect them to follow us if we're acting the exact opposite of what we asked them to not be. Like the slogan "One Malaysia", we should work together not the other way round. We should change for the betterment of ourselves and our country, then only we can achieve our dreams of becoming a developed country.

Thanks you.

The hopeful one.

You're My Motivation

It was our last week selling pizzas.

Finally! I can't stand seeing or smelling any more pizzas! ><

It was quite fun as 5 Batai was also selling bubble tea with us.

Both of the classes were shouting like mad to attract the students,

and I must say, the canteen is as noisy as the night market.

Our sales are quite good. I thought of suggesting a promo,

"A slice of pizza + A cup of bubble tea = RM5"

but I didn't. Don't wanna cause more trouble. xP

The sad thing is that we have to give 10% of our profit to the canteen,

for according to them, we stole their business. ==

Oh well, that's the treasurer's "business". :P

This morning, I attended the Blind Leading The Blind competition
held by the Lions Club. We were supposed to reach there by 6.30am,
which is very early for me, as I normally wake up at 9.00am on Sundays.

Was supposed to go with Joey, but she had something on suddenly.
No choice, I've to go without a partner, and in hopes to find one there.
Luckily, I found someone. His partner "ditched" him too. xP
It's kinda awkward as he is a guy,
and I don't really know him except the fact
that he sometimes plays badminton with us.
Moreover, to lead a blind, both parties have to trust each other,
not that I don't trust him, it's just.. I'm not close to him.. so yea.
Nevertheless, it's fun, I got to experience the feeling of being blind.
We should be grateful for our perfect eye sight. :)

Call Me Maybe

Another 29/30 days till Mid term exam,
I'm still not in the mood to study yet,
which made myself very worry.
Well, nothing much happened this week.
Had some misunderstanding with my friends
which caused me to feel really down..

It's not a big deal, but it caused my friends to piss off
which I didn't like it at all.
It's funny how such simple things can make one so pissed
but I understand, if I were in her shoes, I'd be pissed too.
But luckily, it didn't take long till we're back like old times. :)

Besides, I was absent last Thursday as I was down with flu.
I got to say, though the feeling of skipping school was nice,
the body ache and dizziness from the sickness was uncomfortable.
Not to mention the homework you got from being absent. ><

Okay, need to continue with my assignment. taataa.

What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Stronger

Well, I must say, this week is quite a busy week.
The accounts project is out on Monday evening,
and so that means we're supposed to start doing it.
Pn. Sally wanted us to finish it a.s.a.p as according to her,
we can use the time to do revision for Mid Term Exam.
Yes, I do need that time to study,
but the project is not that easy you know, and it's killing my brain cells! ><
worse come to worst, there are other projects like Moral and Civic! D:
*sigh*

Anyway, our class is selling pizzas for the next few weeks! :D
Why so? because we need the money for our nostalgia page. xP
For your information, we need RM1100 for a page,
yeap, only one miserable page..
so we decided to sell pizzas to start off with our "fundraising" thingy..
The first day was a disaster..
The pizza delivery man came 5 minutes before our recess ended,
luckily we managed to sell all of it or else I'll kill that person! :/
Apparently, Domino's said they can't deliver it to us
if we use the Buy 1 Free 1 voucher,
so we got into a little "debate" competition.
There's where it took so long for the pizzas to come.

We've been selling for 2 days already,
and the sales were not bad,
though some students said it was quite expensive,
but they still bought it. haha..
Some of our teachers also support us by buying from us :)
Besides that, our class also had handmade crafts
which are really nice!
Hopefully we'll be able to earn the amount we need. :)

Go 5 Belianers! :D